jenna's femur

The trampoline's bent. Jenna somehow broke her femur into 3 different pieces.  She just got back from having surgery. The medical center said they've never seen this kind of injury in a cat, only in dogs. Today 

when i was texting tori i asked her whats going on w her and lenny, if they hooked up lately & whatever. 

She said no they havent and lately it seems like he doesnt have time for her or something. Then she said "i would like it if u 

kissed me tho :)" and i said "really?...cuz so would i." she said "yay :)." i said "would u wanna do anything else or u just like the 
kissing part the best" and she said "like what explainnn :)" and i said "like could i feel your boobs or finger you" and she said "yeah" and i said "fun fun fun" and she said "yea it would b" and i said after a while "wow im just kinda really speechless 
right now" and she answered ";)". Then all day long i kept thinking about it. I was probably over-thinking it, like i do with a lot 
of things. I was wondering if she wanted us to be girlfriends. I was trying to imagine what 
it would be like if we were a couple. I was wondering if now i shouldnt hook up with this guy i think i might like, this guy 
i met the other day named Lan. He's Darya's cousin and i gave him a celtic cross tattoo on his left tricep and it was one of the 
best i've done yet.

I just like how Lan doesnt pussyfoot around things. He's straightforward and to  the point. He's easy to understand that way.  I like that he has OCD too.  I just think it would be cool to be with someone else who also has some kind of disability or mental difference.

oh anyway but then today Tori was talking about Mike again and how she's been upset because she's confused because she doesn't know if they should still be broken up or not because he's being soooo nice to her lately because he wants her back.  anyway so i guess i don't have to worry about being exclusive with her.

she's been calling and texting me less in the last few days.  i'm just going to guess it's because she needs less emotional support than she did when she was going through a breakup.  also today's her mom's birthday so i guess she's focused on that.

last night i had this weird dream that she dumped me as her friend.  ....i guess that's a fear of mine.  i guess i've just been so much happier ever since i've had her as a friend that it makes me scared of the idea of her not needing me anymore.

oh yeah needless to say her brother is now definitely out of the picture.