extra ribs

last night i was out jogging. last night i was out jogging and thinking about me & kelley & shy. i'm worried. i'm worried that i overstepped a boundary. i'm worried for the sake of my apprenticeship. however i know that if i keep enough of a distance between me & kelley then things should be fine. or maybe it doesn't even have to be a distance but if she ever wants to hang out i have to tell her that we can't talk about shy. the less i know about his personal life, the better. that way in my eyes he is purely the tattoo master and my mentor that i look up to. that way i can continue being his devoted apprentice.

the ultimate mind-boggling paradox: the more you learn about life, the more you realize that in the grand scheme of things you really know nothing.

august 15 i sent myself a text reminding me that that day was somehow really connected to penguins. however i forget all the ways. i just remember that darya brought up penguins in a conversation. she was saying that alana is as big as an emperor penguin. also earlier that day at work, we had watched two different movies that had penguins in them at some point: fight club and good luck chuck. also for some reason i had been contemplating getting a penguin tattoo. i also had been contemplating getting an otter though.

when the thought of cops suddenly pops up in your head and you get all paranoid and make sure you're not speeding and not breaking any traffic laws and then realize there is a cop car in viewing distance from you....you may wonder whether you have psychic abilities or whether it was just a coincidence.

things i texted myself:

aug 26:

Ray says being around me is like being on lsd. Shy looks hot esp. W his long  hair and esp. W his hair down. How does kelly have such a flat belly? She had twins. 2 nights ago i had a dream that i randomly 

decided to tat my face like mike tyson's then i did just 2 lines (around my eye) and i was like "what the fuck, i dont like this. 

What was i thinking?" and then i was soooooooo happy and relieved when i woke up

aug 30:

When i was visiting lindsay in virginia i saw a kind of bug i never saw before.  It landed on my phone. It looked just like a mosquito but it was black w white spots & stripes. While i was driving down 
there i saw this sign by the road that said "aggressive driver imaging for your safety." i wondered, and still wonder, what it means. 
Last night as i was on a jog i saw this little mole on the ground....not the kind that just looks like a mouse w no eyes but the 
kind that looks like the kind u see in cartoons w the big front digging claws and all. There must have been something wrong w his back 
or his hind leg bc he was just laying there on his back, struggling and wiggling like he was trying to get up & walk and he couldnt. 
i knew he was injured so i took him back to Pinky and Buffy (i was at Nana's house) thinking they could give him a quick and painless death.  
i thought "yeah, sure, Pinky's old and Buffy's fat, but, still...they're cats.  if they see a wiggling struggling furry little rodent on the 
ground they will find it to be irresistable." however i was wrong. i placed the mole before them and they just stared at it like "what is this 
thing doing here? shouldn't it be outside?" .....how pathetic.

one in twenty people has an extra rib. i read it on the back of a cereal box.

i got back in touch with cody. he's going to bloomsburg. i want to see him.

Nana told me about Noah, and how he sees pictures of Ben & Peter and he wants to meet them.

i told Justin how i feel. he feels the same. next time he saw Rachel he was cold to her, 
as if he was thinking "Rachel i was only using you to lure Liz home with me. now i have 
her. you are no longer of use to me." but i really hope there's no hard feelings there cuz 
she's still friends with Tiffany so i think i'll still have to see her sometimes....