similarities

when painting, mixing the colors is half the battle. When making hemp jewelery,  cutting the cords at the right length is half the battle. When sculpting, getting the armature right is half the battle. 

So Lan tells me about all the ways his OCD affects him, and i want to tell him  all the ways i'm affected by whatever i have...not OCD but something with sometimes similar effects. Its motivated me to finally 
put into words something that ive always thought about off and on my whole life but never usually talk about. Ok, whats an 
example? Even numbers. I always favor even numbers over odd numbers. It bothers me if one window in the car is rolled further down than 
the other...but not as much if someone else rolled one of the windows down. When im running on the treadmill for a certain number 
of minutes, i have to have jogged for an even number of minutes, or a number that ends in five. Theres other things. I know there 
are, i just cant think of them right now. It usually bothers me to leave things unfinished. Like when i was around ten or 
so, and for several years onward, i remember being in the mentality of being uncomfortable with never finishing any books i ever 
started.  I remember i'd be reading a book and thinking, "hmm. Im just testing this book out right now seeing if i like it 
seeing what i think of it w/e. I should have a designated number of pages, and beyond that number, if i go beyond that page 
number that means this is a book i have to finish someday not a book im just testing out. That way (there being a designated page 
number), i can be assured that i've given equal chances to each and every book i ever read. I have not been Biased or prejudiced in any way. I've been as objective as i possibly could be 
when selecting what books permanently go on my list of books that i must someday remember to read all the way through. At some point 
in my life, at anywhere between age 10 and my early teens, i realized i had to let go of that list. Otherwise i would never be 
free to enjoy the pleasures of casually browsing shelves of libraries and bookstores, without being afraid to have to add another 
book onto my list which was already getting distressingly long.