you know what's so awesome about threesomes? so much of the pressure is taken off of each person.
this girl i work with, tori..... sometimes i wonder if she likes me. but then most of the time i think she probably doesn't and i'm just reading into things too much like i usually do.
oh those kids. cant take my eyes off them for a second. i turn around and ben's holding a bottle of "glitter sparkle gel for decorating cake cookies and cupcakes" upside down over his open mouth and just swallowing down the whole tube.
i guess i have a thing for red-headed girls. there was alyssa then tiffany then tori. oh, not to mention kat of course. i still think about her semi-often.
oh alyssa emailed me this short story she wrote for one of her classes. i could tell the main character was, like, another version of herself. you know how a lot of writers do that. they take their own lives and the people in their lives and the relationships and situations in their lives and change things around a bit until they have a fictional story. so anyway the main character jazmyne was alyssa, and i think i was in there somewhere too. the character arielle was either me or kat, and if she was kat then i was the character... dani.
i miss shane finding sneaky little ways to flip me off. i miss him answering "who" questions with "barry."
big cat week is next week starting monday on national geographic channel. i saw commercials for it on tv at the gym. the commercials intrigued me. for some reason i've always liked drawing and painting big cats killing things. i saw the commercials and thought "maybe i should watch that and record it and pause it or something, right at like the best part, like in the middle of a beautiful perfect pounce, and draw that or paint it or something. maybe this is what i needed to get me motivated to start making art again." ....then again maybe that won't work. lately i haven't been drawing or painting. i've lost interest in it but probably just temporarily but not definitely temporarily. i would be more inspired to do artistic things that are useful to someone. i would draw up a tattoo design for someone. i would paint a mural for someone. i would make hemp jewelry for someone. i would make clothes for someone.
i've been making hemp jewelry lately. this one thing i made was too big to be a bracelet and too small to be an ankle bracelet and i tried it on Jenna's neck and it fit perfectly. she still has it on. it's been a couple days. it looks so cute on her.
sometimes i feel like i should be a writer but i don't know what i would write.
i really think there should be a school of witchcraft and wizardry in the united states, not just in england and france and germany.
whenever i get my tattoo equipment in the mail...hmmm. i'm pretty sure i'm going to tattoo myself. not positive though. i'm definitely going to tattoo Dopie's friend Kevin who's in the army. besides that i don't know. i have to try to find people that want me to tattoo them. but i'm still pretty sure i'm going to tattoo myself. hehe i'm pretty excited. it'll be something on my leg i guess. something colorful. something shaded. something pretty. something that i'll take a picture of later and put it on facebook and whatnot. hmhm i'm excited.
several days ago i got in touch with Sean M again. i wanted to get together with him. at first he acted like he wanted to but then the day we were supposed to hang out he blew me off and said he just wanted sexy pictures. i just ignored him. ...seems to be just more proof that that's not going anywhere.
head mulling. there were a lot of hot guys at that bar i went to with Anna, the one called Big Heads (including the bass player of the band that we went to go see). there were a couple not-bad-looking ones at Bert's in Bristol on Dopie-hosts-kinky-quizzo-night. there were a couple cute ones at the gym. then of course there's still my two Seans. i keep wondering who my next lay will be.
ha then sometimes i think maybe someday Tori would want to have a threesome with me and her boyfriend. sometimes i even think maybe Ray and Darya even would. and sometimes i think maybe Anna and her friend Mike (who's in the band we went to see at Big Heads), who she likes, would want to.
haha. me and my stupid thoughts.
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