stink bugs

i can't believe how ridicoulous Peter is. he keeps "pet" stink bugs in a little wire bug cage. is that more ridiculous, or the fact that he's afraid of stink bugs when they're not in a cage? if there's ever one in his room at night, he wants me to come and take it out of his room. the last time he did that i just refused to. i showed him how to remove them from his room using a tissue to pick them up so he doesn't have to touch them. that should be good enough. he shouldn't need to come downstairs at night crying because there's "scary" stink bugs in his room. and why are they scary? because those ones aren't his pets?

4/13

"Lizzy can you go get a knife or a chainsaw and cut that stuff for me? Please may you do that?"

like an artist

i keep remembering this one time i was talking to chelsea about tug. i forget what i was saying. maybe i was just telling her about the fact that i used to be so infatuated with him, and then over the years the infatuation and attraction faded away to the point where i just don't think of him like that anymore. i think of him as a really good friend. whatever i was saying to her about him, i just remember her saying (and the look on her face as she said it),

"well have you seen what he looks like?!" hahaha. she finds him not to be attractive at all. not in the least. ...i just think he looks like an artist.

4/4/12

i'm currently feeling blown away by the dramatic transformation of my feelings towards my mother that's happened over the last week or two.

not that i should be feeling blown away by it. this has happened before. i've gone through phases of being overcome with--not hatred, but deep resentment--towards her (practically wanting to stab her in the eyeballs with a fork), followed by phases of being overwhelmed with feelings of love, attachment, affection and sentimentality towards her.

i guess this is how love is.

synesthesia

Synesthesia: basically when your mind will take data from one form of sensory perception and activates another one in a sympathetic manner, or associate letters/numbers with varying colors. It can happen to anyone, but is arguably most famous in its occurrence while a person uses LSD, and in its occurrence in aspies and autistics

3/15

please?

3/4

uh huh, you know what it is. everything i do, i do it big. black & yellow, black & yellow, black & yellow, black & yellow.